Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Lost and found.

"Sometimes, I don't post for awhile because I don't think my words are worth being heard. Sometimes, I get so wrapped up in the things I should do, I forget who I am. I lose my identity in the world."

I read this quote on another blog and I couldn't help but to realize how much I could put it into my life. I use to blog A LOT about all kinds of things and then I slowly stopped doing it. I don't know why, I guess life got in the way like it always does. I forget who I am and I do lose my identity.  Lately though it feels like I've been doing a bit better about holding onto it. I don't lose myself so much in the small things like I used to. I have my moments but they are no where near what they used to be. I still fall to pieces and have a hard time holding myself together but truth be told I am doing so much better. It seems like things are finally coming together and that includes my personal life and school. Of course work could use a lot of improvement but that's honestly not something that I can control. 

Monday, September 12, 2011


At least that's what I've been told and I guess each day I believe it a little bit more. Some days I don't though. Some days I get so frustrated and I just feel like giving up on everything. Lately I have been facing such ridiculous financial hardships that I feel like I just keep falling deeper and deeper into them. I don't spend any money other than on my bills and gas to get back and forth from work, home, and school. I felt like I had everything figured out and I was doing okay then I was hit with an $1100 cellphone bill that honestly wasn't just my fault. Ever since this happened I've felt like I have been trying to claw my way out of a hole and it just truly sucks! I have no money for myself and there's nothing I can do about it. Work has cut my hours and what little bit of spare money I have I swear goes into my gas tank. Even setting up a budget seems to do me no good because SOMETHING always happens. I'm 22 years old and I am struggling to keep myself out of debt and my head afloat, as some say. I need to finish school, I need a better job, and I need to get out of this rut! As they say, "Money makes the world go 'round"... unfortunately.